Is your first reaction, first thought to run from it?

To get back into your creative zone where you just feel on top of the world busting out epicness left, right and centre?

What if those moments that you fear the most were there for a reason?

A chemical response of your body when it requires to recharge and recuperate?

Think of ocean tides,

Think of night and day,

Think of the seasons…

Nature knows how to effortlessly move in and out of creation

How to give and receive

And so do YOU

As you, yourself are part of nature

Most of the time you forgot that this in fact is the best way for you to prepare yourself for the next epic stint of creation

Thinking you have to work hard, grind night and day to be a success, to have the life that you want

About 4 years ago now I promised myself all my creation would only come from a place of love and excitement

No more fear of lack and scarcity

I used to force myself

I used to think building your own business and the life of your dreams has to be dictated by others that did it the hard way

You have to work hard after all – most of us would have heard that at school, at home…

Just look around… see how 99% live their lives

Running, fighting, struggling…

What if the 1% remembered something you forgot at some point?

What would it be like to re-remember?

See, Cliff and I started studying Gene Keys, recommended by the one and only Marci Lock – our epic, bad ass mentor and guide a few years ago!

And even if you just read the first one… how life’s meant to be easy will quickly become crystal clear to you!

ENTROPY – the state when your body retreats and slows down is one of the most beautiful gifts to embrace

A natural state that when resisted turns into DEPRESSION – and guess what?

I’ve been there and done that!

With panic attacks so bad that I thought I was dying, I had no idea that all I was doing was just resisting my body’s natural flow…

See the gift in allowing he entropic state to wash over you is FRESHNESS – freshness of new ideas, creative states so profound and powerful you think you are Einstein!

They feel freaking awesome!

By allowing that beautiful flow to take place in your body

Without fighting

Without forcing

You begin to direct your TRUST within

For that where all your TRUTH comes from!

Life flows trough its seasons effortlessly just like there’s always a new day after the night has fallen…

And through this flow you get to the real essence of entropy – that is BEAUTY!

For BEAUTY is the REASON for LIFE, and LIFE is the REASON for BEAUTY

M

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Everything makes sense

You look back and think

How the fuck did I not see this before?

Well…You couldn’t!

The dots always connect looking back

And never looking forward

The question is: Are you trusting yourself? Are you in the place of knowing?

That this is exactly how this thing we call life goes…

As if you are

If you’re trusting or simply knowing…You’re in for an epic and adventurous ride! Filled with sparkling curiosity and luscious wonder

As even in the darkest hours, in the greatest challenge.. You deep down know that one day. One moment… It’ll all go… Poof…Shazam

It all clicks into place

And if you’re just knowing you don’t even wait for that moment. You don’t even think about it. You allow yourself to effortlessly flow with your moment to moment experience.

Some call it flow. Some call it presence…YET!

When you don’t trust that it’s all there for a reason

And when you don’t know it’s unfolding and falling perfectly into place

Your ride will be bumpy, filled with fear, stress and nervous anticipation.

Fuelled with anxious ‘why is this happening to me’ type of feeling

When the going gets tough you will suffer in deep pain greatly and when the stars align

You’ll be dreading the day it all ends and disappears from sight yet again.

Not being able to even take in and feel all those happy feelings.

All of the joy and all the fulfilment.. It’ll be all you’ve ever craved and all you’ve ever wanted! Yet you simply will not be in a place to receive it.

The desperate rollercoaster will seem never ending and you’ll live your life playing victim of your seemingly random to you circumstances.

Rather than being the conscious creator that you know (or maybe not) that you can be.

Do you think I live my life on the ‘conscious’ side 100%? Always in all ways?

Do I fuck…

And that’s why I’m sharing this with you

I play. I balance. I harmonise and. I flow and then I get out of whack

I seem to forget what my fucking truth is and go off wandering

It is painful and it is frustrating and it is challenging the shit out of me.

So why do I do it? Why don’t I just stay the course? And follow my flow. Honour my soul and cherish the whisper?

Honestly…?

Sometimes I’ve no fucking idea…Yet then, yet again, I remember, it comes like a freaking lightbulb moment

And I go… Oh fuck…I forgot again. The rules of my own freaking game I’m creating

Doh! I just as much as you require contrast

Without feeling lost. I’d never find myself. Without feeling anxiousI’d never know what certainty feelslike. Without suppressing myself and my own magic… I’d never know what effortless, liberating expression feels like

Can you see this?

Are you beginning to see the point in all this?

You can fight it and die miserable… Or you can surrender and follow the river

The waterway of life that sometimes feels like a gently babbling stream and sometimes like a raging wild river

Change is the only constant

And remember that CHANGE in your life is never going to stop

In fact it’ll only get faster

And it’s not the change… Not the circumstance you experience that dictates your outcome.

It is your ATTITUDE and your interpretation

Of what you’re seeing, of what you’re experiencing.. That dictated the outcome that you will then experience

It is a forever practice, like a never ending university degree in perfecting your craft of living your life

Knowing that you can’t reach perfection as it doesn’t exist or believing and knowing that everything is in fact perfect

Just as it is!

Oh my beloved paradoxes of life

And remember!

That for starters and after all that pondering… It is not the destination that brings us happiness! It is in fact the very journey, so either buckle up my friend and enjoy the ride or resist the fuck out of it and live your life forever frustrated

M x

and a client asked this question

And here’s my response

DETACHMENT FROM AN OUTCOME

The quickest and easiest way is to understand that when we insist on a very specific outcome,

i.e. that a client can only come from one source not another, for example ‘I am running a workshop, therefore clients will sign up as a result of that’ and then when they don’t you feel like a failure…

Is it possible that people can come from a totally different source as a result of you loving this workshop and delivering it and being so in tune with your genius and energetically aligned so you can’t help but pull people towards you?

The thing is, it’s an energetic investment that counts

The effect of that investment can come from so many different places

And by getting worked up about a specific outcome, we are shutting ourselves off from the limitless possibilities available to us out there

Every time I feel uncomfortable with something I ask myself,

Where am I applying expectation of a specific outcome

It shows up every time!!!

We run out of our subconscious 90-95% of the time

Most of the time we won’t even notice that we applied expectations or parameters to outcomes until the uncomfortable feeling shows up -it’s only there to assist us and show us feedback that we’ve done it!

How awesome is that really?

As if it didn’t show up, we’d be going through our life asleep and wondering why shit happens to us

Rather than realising how powerful we actually are as creators

M

…but it can get in long term, symptom free remission

If you know the 7 main triggers.

I see so much BS on the internet and fundamental lack of understanding of what a autoimmune disease is.

When you trigger a autoimmune disease which is clinically recognised, that’s stage 3.

You have lost ‘tolerance’ to that tissue and it’s never coming back. I learnt it the hard way.

Yet, what people with autoimmune don’t know is that there is also stage 1 and stage 2.

Stage 1 being ‘silent’ – this stage you have antibodies being produced but there is no tissue damage, thus no symptoms.

In stage 2, you have antibodies and symptoms but if you go to the doctor, there is not enough tissue damage to diagnose.

^ I see this all the time.

What’s worse, if you have 1 autoimmune issue you should always screen straight away to make sure you don’t have silent or reactive autoimmunity.

In 70% of people I work with, this occurs and is a MAIN element why they have spent THOUSANDS…

Changing their diet, using all the supplements……try cold exposure, red light therapy and much more.

Yet they just don’t improve.

The practitioner often thinks the person isn’t sticking to the diet or following advise.

In my experience, this isn’t often the case. Most of the time people come to me with the PERFECT diet…

… yet still have all these systems of:

Exhaustion, low mood, poor sleep, lack of sex drive weight issues.

Here’s the thing, as someone that has LIVED with an autoimmune issue and has been med and symptom free for over 11 years..

I learnt a lot about what doesn’t work!

Now I have the pleasure to help people recover and regain their life.

If you have autoimmune issues and a practitioner doesn’t look at the following areas, don’t be surprised if you struggle to improve long term.

1. Undiagnosed Autoimmunity – This is to ensure if you have autoimmune, that you don’t have others.

2. Stages of autoimmune – Are you stage 1, 2 or 3. If you are stage 1 or 2 you can stop the progress to full blown disease. Not always, but often.

3. Identify lifestyle triggers – Things like sleep, movement & stress can be potent triggers if not managed.

4. Chemical triggers – People often lose tolerance to chemicals. These are people that cant stand perfume, scented candles of petrol fumes.

5. Food protein cross reaction – lots of studies show the cross reactivity to foods and autoimmune. Of course there are the standard gluten, wheat, diary, eggs & soy but it goes MUCH deeper depending on the antibodies and tissues affected.

6. Identify Antigen – things like parasites, viruses, bacterial and fungal. These will stop people improving and must be screened for to see if they are active in the body.

7. Immune barriers – did you know you have barriers, not just in the gut but also the brain and lungs to name a few. If these are not in tact, its hard work to recover.

8. Immune Tolerance – Many have lost immune tolerance and become reactive to almost everything they eat. This is because premature immune cells are being exposed when they shouldn’t. This often happens due to poor variation in the diet and a shrunken microbiome.

Ok, there are more but I don’t want to overwhelm,

Hopefully if you read this, you won’t buy into the BS that ‘diet’ will solve your issue.

Don’t get me wrong, its a KEY step in the early stages but its limited to how much someone will improve long term.

I’m not sure if this is useful but felt compelled to share as I see so much BS on the web re autoimmune like… Just take turmeric.. Just cut out gluten etc.

Its not about single things, its about build a strong body that can calm down the inflammatory responses and handle stress.

Do you have the courage to open yourself up to your feelings?

Do you have the courage to open yourself up to your emotions?

All of it…

And I mean EVERYTHING!

Doesn’t it look overwhelming just looking at it all?

Let alone open yourself up to it…

Haven’t you been just so protective of

Your space

Your energy

Your thoughts, feelings, emotions…

And what if?

Just what if…

You were to let it rip

And wash over you

Swallow you whole

Chew and spit you out

Your thoughts

Your feelings

Your emotions

Would you dare to let your guard down

To see what the other side holds for you

Would you jump in

Head first

Just because you KNOW

It is ALL there to guide you

ALWAYS

and

In

ALL WAYS

The most challenging thoughts

The most crushing emotions

The most overwhelming feelings

Are ALL there to assist you

In their totality

Always guiding you

To gently course correct

Back to your true north

Back to your personal zenith

Moment to moment

To be vulnerable

To be transparent

To be radically honest

And not just with the world around you

BUT

First and foremost

With YOU

And YOURSELF only!

As this is the start point of everything for you!

The more you resist it

The more it persists

So for fuck’s sake

Let it flow freely!

The light will shine through instantly!

There simply is NO OTHER WAY!

And it is time for you to LET GO

And crack that shell open

Open to your thoughts

To your emotions and feelings

Fully

Radically

Honestly

Once and for all

Let it all out

And let it all in

As the simple truth is

That every single one of us experiences darkness

There can be no light known without it!

The difference between us conscious creators and 99% of the humans out there

Is that we just don’t give up

Don’t throw in the towel

We eventually stop

Pay attention and listen

Open up to your thoughts, to your emotions and to your feelings!

Give them a voice

Let them come out

Sit back, watch and observe

As you breathe easier

Your body feels lighter

And the world transforms in front of your eyes

As it begins to reflect the TRUE YOU back at you

It’s time to BE YOU

To get to know YOU

To show and express the TRUE YOU

To yourself

And then to the world around you

You’re waiting

They’re waiting

So be it

And so it is…

M x

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Did that catch your attention?

Good

Let me share with you a tale of how a humongous industry has been built

Around the most natural of human states…

FLOW

the mystical, the shamanic, the magical most precious and sought after states

Is available to you and you and you and you too

Wait for it…………..ON TAP!

At a click of a finger

Just because. And there’s no need for:

– outside circumstances

– pharmaceutical substances

– and technological advances

To allow you to be in your most natural always available state as a human being

A bit of a shocker ain’t it?

As up until now you’ve likely considered

Only a small selected group of peopl

eSomehow different to you

Being able to access this special, magical state

The selflessness

The timelessness

The effortlessness

The richness

The magical fizzy bubbles of excitement

Where you just don’t even know or care who or where you are

Time does not exist

Everything’s just effortless and easy

The colours so vivid

The sounds so rich

And the ability for you to absorb or share information is filled up to the brim of capacity you never knew existed or was available to you

Waaaaah….Seriously!

That’s how being in FLOW feels

How is it even possible that you don’t need to be special to access it?

How comes that you don’t even need anything outside of you?

You can just click your fingers and arrive

To be thereTo be in FLOW??? Well…Think of optimal health for example, Homeostasis, Pure balance.

You don’t need drugs or medication to get there. It is a natural human state for all of us to live inYET! The noise of outside circumstances

The physical Physiological Emotional and energetic gunk

That we keep putting in our space and in our bodies

Throws us out of whack, out of said balance and guess what? A whole freaking giant (pharmaceutical) industry has been built around it

Now think of FLOW a bit like optimal health of your body. Could this be an optimal health of your mind? Maybe? And together they create that powerhouse that is you in full pelt of exuding your humanness out there? Maybe? And you know what?

It is the same shit… The same physical, physiological, emotional and energetic gunk. That turns your FLOW dial down from ‘EPIC fm’ to ‘FML fm’

Can you see that? And guess what…? A whole freaking industry is now being built around it…To make you believe That just like optimal health..

FLOW is only accessible with this or that pill, with this or that gadget…

Let me share a couple of personal experiences with you.

How comes a man’s palliative stage 4 cancer recedes miraculously just by allowing his cells to communicate better?

With a few of natural supplements, dietary and lifestyle changes, while the most expensive pharmaceutical inventions did fuck all…He was getting ready to die…Why is that?

Why a woman slips straight into magical FLOW just by moving her body and creates like a mofo, just by expressing herself? Why is that?

Both those industries that I mentioned want us to believe that the health of our body and mind is outside of us and only available to those that have been chosen somehow. And if you think you are not one of them. You can drop all your monies. Attempting to chase the elusive states of your physical and mental body

Pfft!

I’d say I’ll pass…And don’t get me wrong! I appreciate a good bio hacking tool And a good story I appreciate modern medicine for without it my epic husband would not be here right now (Yet at the same time, it was the same modern medicine that nearly killed him a few times, but that’s a whole separate story)

Tune into yourself! Remove all the gunk and ask what is it that does it for you. What flips your switch? Is it your breath? Your favourite tune? Is it moving your body? What is it? I promise you… FLOW isn’t special.

It’s not mystical and it’s not hard to get there. Strip back the bullshit. Stop wearing masks and pretending you’re someone you’re not.

Just to fit in somewhere and don’t spend your money on shit that promises you stuff that you don’t believe you can get yourself from within in the first place

M x

Seriously…I am curious!

Everything we’ve ever wanted is a state of BEING. Not a state of DOING

And not a state of HAVING

Doing and having comes as a result of being first. It is a FEELING that we’re after. Not an object or an action of getting it. Think about it…

You’d have heard me quote Eckhart Tolle before and his war mindset understanding, that when you focus on fighting.. You have to have a reason to fight, otherwise the point of your life becomes nonsensical

And nonsensical is the biggest threat to our identity.

It’s the death of it. The death of you. So now, think about this for a moment. Or rather FEEL IT.

Let’s put thinking aside for a minute… If you feel to get something or somewhere. You have to KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE PRIZE. What are you really telling yourself?

That your purpose is not the state of BEING… And the FEELING that you are after. But the thing you are AIMING for.

Can you see how nothing can ever be enough and it wont be. Nothing will ever be to your satisfaction. You’ll keep craving, aiming and yearning. As if your purpose is KEEPING AN EYE ON IT and going for it. You can’t ever fully have it. As you lose the purpose of your being.

Yet again it becomes nonsensical.The biggest threat. The death of you and your being.

Let me draw a picture for you

You keep an eye on the prize.. Let’s say a promotion. You keep going for it. Working your ass off. You get it. You’re happy for a moment. Yet very quickly you aim for something else. The next step on the ladder. An even better job. And even more powerful position OR

Let’s say you keep an eye on the prize. The car of your dreams for example. You work your ass off again.. You keep aiming. You keep working towards it. And then eventually you get it. The prize is there.. You feel like you’ve won.

How long does the feeling last usually? A day? A week? A month maybe…?

And then what?

You feel incomplete again. You feel like you need another prize to keep your eye on. A house? Another car? A holiday to a certain dream destination? You name it! The prizes you set yourself to win are endless

YET

Nothing deep down is ever enough

Nothing fulfils you. Nothing satisfies that compulsive need for yearning. For aiming. For keeping that eye of yours on another prize. As you told yourself that is your purpose. And if it’s done. Your life becomes nonsensical. To the very fact that you’re no longer aiming. No longer yearning to get that prize. You don’t need to keep your eye on it. Fuck!

So what do you do with that now you’ve realised.. Why up until now you’ve felt miserable so very often.

Even tho deep down if you were to look at your life

You’d say there’s nothing really to be miserable about.

Well…TAKE YOUR EYE OFF THE FUCKING PRIZE

Will you? And stop aiming! I dare you…It is a decision

It happens in one moment. Yet the ease of comfort and satisfaction in your own skin. Just because you are. Just because you are here. That comes with practice. And you know what?

ALL the things that you have previously thought that you needed to aim for and to keep your eye on..

Happen with effortless ease

They’re just there for you and sometimes, some of them, become far far less enticing.

As you see through the smoke and mirrors….Remember though

We still live in a 3D material world where possessions. Where status, identities, are here for us to play with.

Some of the most in PAIN humans I’ve witnessed

Were those desperately trying to neglect and give up all the above, and claim that they don’t need or don’t want it. It’s all here for us to play with

I freaking LOOOOVE nice things and experiences.

If anyone, you’ll all know this…It’s how we go about them that matters and changes everything

It is what it is. It’s there or it’s not.

Your essence, who you are at the core does not change with or without it

M x

❤️

PROBLEMS or OPPORTUNITIES

And it’s only YOU who can choose which one!

ALIGNMENT!

The fact is – we are ALWAYS ALIGNED to something!

Whether it serves us or not is a different story.

99% of human population will (unconsciously) choose to stay aligned to their fucking bullshit stories

And playing the victim, thinking that life happens to them and that’s just the way it is

I SAY FUCK THAT!!!!

Are you with me?

Yes? Ok, so now repeat out loud:

FUCK THAT!

I am NOW choosing to take back my POWER and decide what it is I see in front of me!

Problems or opportunities…

Our PERCEPTION has nothing to do with the REALITY…

There simply isn’t such thing as global and overall REALITY

Everything you see and experience is

YOUR VERSION OF WHAT YOU CALL REALITY

That’s always filtered through your experiences and your perceptions

It is YOU who decides whether something is right or wrong

Whether something is good or bad

Outside of your judgment and interpretation

Everything is meaningless

It just IS!

It is you who gives it meaning

It is you who CHOOSES what your reality means to you my friend!

And it can only ever BE YOU who makes that decision!

Whether you choose what YOU WANT or whether you follow the interpretation of the masses…

Nobody else can do that for you!

And fuck me will challenges show up…

Remember!

Every time you decide to up level – your integrity will be challenged to see how committed you are!!

And the real gold in this…

Fuck that, platinum!!

And diamonds!

The real platinum and diamonds in this is that

You’ll only KNOW…And I mean KNOW with every single ounce of your being

That you’ve transcended your own fucking bullshit

Your own full of crap stories

When you SEE and FEEL the greatest OPPORTUNITY in your life

Deep within your greatest CHALLENGE…

M x

❤️

This year has been one of my busiest, and it’s also been one of the worst years in my health for around 12 years.

Yet, the two are not as entwined as it might look.

Many get busy and sacrifice their health, yet I have aimed to do the opposite.

Yet here I am, being brutally honest, not in a good place.

Reacting to over 100 foods,

Sensitive to chemical smells,

Even putting the washing out sets off runny nose / eyes.

Brain is limited to a couple of hours of productive work a day.

Now this might seem weird coming from the guy that solves these issues day in and out with people all over the world.

So why am I where I am.

Truthfully.

I went against what I knew to be ‘right’ at the time.

As soon as we moved into our current place, I knew there were issues.

I convinced myself I could remedy them.

I was wrong.

10 months on and off in this environment has broken down the resilience of my immune system.

Right now, I have the best support in my corner.

1. Marta who needs no introduction

2. The best doc in the world in this area to assist me.

3. Myself – aka my willingness to solve the issue.

I’m thankful I know what can be done and how I will feel when I move and rebalance.

If there is a takeaway, It’s likely that you get to trust your intuition and gut feeling first time round.

As me not doing that in march will likely cost a year of my life in protocols and five figures too.

Anyhoo, here’s to the next trip around the sun

Tears were to flow and all feels were to be had in the middle of my very basic workout (as I can’t do much more atm) that in the past would have been my warm up…

So I let go and surrendered

What else is an option?

I’m grieving the sun as my capacity is minimal

I’m grieving the sea waves and the breeze as my breathing is laboured

I’m grieving my donkey friend who I’ll miss dearly, my friends, connections and everything this island has gifted us over the years of coming and going

And more than anything

I’m grieving our beautiful house, the garden the stunning pool I got to swim in SO much this year despite in the past being freaked out by water

I’m grieving all the other stunning houses that were sick and that both Cliff and I got equally sick in

Sick house syndrome is no joke

And it’s sadly rife here in Cyprus…

Last year I swore I won’t go and live anywhere in the winter again as the London cold killed us

And yet here I am packing my life yet again and moving back to my homeland for a little while

This wasn’t the plan!

The plan was to stay here for a while while we find our first home in Poland to buy…

Well… the universe has its ways and we’re violently ejected from the island yet again

And maybe, just maybe our plan to roam around my homeland for a while (which is what we always wanted to do anyway) is what will take us to the doors of the place we love and adore so much that we make it our home

Or maybe not…Yet I know despite all the grief

All the sadness It is time to acknowledge our sweet childlike naivety of coming back here thinking we won’t get sick yet again!

5 out of 6 houses!!!

I mean seriously…I’m dreading the cold and the potential snow

But I’m so so excited for the spring and our explorations

Oh and Cliff practicing Polish

We will be back to the island periodically as we are residents here and if you know a thing or two it’s worth maintaining

But for now…In just under two months

We’ll be saying good bye to all the beauty

But also good bye to being sick, run down and incapable of living…I don’t know if it brings anything up for any of you

But if you read this

Thank you

And watch out for the Wildes stirring shit up yet again once we feel better and get our energy back as our bodies begin to heal!

M x