The dots always connect looking back…
Isn’t it interesting how suddenly almost at a click of a finger
Everything makes sense
You look back and think
How the fuck did I not see this before?
Well…You couldn’t!
The dots always connect looking back
And never looking forward
The question is: Are you trusting yourself? Are you in the place of knowing?
That this is exactly how this thing we call life goes…
As if you are
If you’re trusting or simply knowing…You’re in for an epic and adventurous ride! Filled with sparkling curiosity and luscious wonder
As even in the darkest hours, in the greatest challenge.. You deep down know that one day. One moment… It’ll all go… Poof…Shazam
It all clicks into place
And if you’re just knowing you don’t even wait for that moment. You don’t even think about it. You allow yourself to effortlessly flow with your moment to moment experience.
Some call it flow. Some call it presence…YET!
When you don’t trust that it’s all there for a reason
And when you don’t know it’s unfolding and falling perfectly into place
Your ride will be bumpy, filled with fear, stress and nervous anticipation.
Fuelled with anxious ‘why is this happening to me’ type of feeling
When the going gets tough you will suffer in deep pain greatly and when the stars align
You’ll be dreading the day it all ends and disappears from sight yet again.
Not being able to even take in and feel all those happy feelings.
All of the joy and all the fulfilment.. It’ll be all you’ve ever craved and all you’ve ever wanted! Yet you simply will not be in a place to receive it.
The desperate rollercoaster will seem never ending and you’ll live your life playing victim of your seemingly random to you circumstances.
Rather than being the conscious creator that you know (or maybe not) that you can be.
Do you think I live my life on the ‘conscious’ side 100%? Always in all ways?
Do I fuck…
And that’s why I’m sharing this with you
I play. I balance. I harmonise and. I flow and then I get out of whack
I seem to forget what my fucking truth is and go off wandering
It is painful and it is frustrating and it is challenging the shit out of me.
So why do I do it? Why don’t I just stay the course? And follow my flow. Honour my soul and cherish the whisper?
Honestly…?
Sometimes I’ve no fucking idea…Yet then, yet again, I remember, it comes like a freaking lightbulb moment
And I go… Oh fuck…I forgot again. The rules of my own freaking game I’m creating
Doh! I just as much as you require contrast
Without feeling lost. I’d never find myself. Without feeling anxiousI’d never know what certainty feelslike. Without suppressing myself and my own magic… I’d never know what effortless, liberating expression feels like
Can you see this?
Are you beginning to see the point in all this?
You can fight it and die miserable… Or you can surrender and follow the river
The waterway of life that sometimes feels like a gently babbling stream and sometimes like a raging wild river
Change is the only constant
And remember that CHANGE in your life is never going to stop
In fact it’ll only get faster
And it’s not the change… Not the circumstance you experience that dictates your outcome.
It is your ATTITUDE and your interpretation
Of what you’re seeing, of what you’re experiencing.. That dictated the outcome that you will then experience
It is a forever practice, like a never ending university degree in perfecting your craft of living your life
Knowing that you can’t reach perfection as it doesn’t exist or believing and knowing that everything is in fact perfect
Just as it is!
Oh my beloved paradoxes of life
And remember!
That for starters and after all that pondering… It is not the destination that brings us happiness! It is in fact the very journey, so either buckle up my friend and enjoy the ride or resist the fuck out of it and live your life forever frustrated
M x
